About a month ago I wrote this:
"Later this month I'm going to be shooting my first music video. Which is pretty crazy exciting but also a little daunting.
I've been wanting to shoot a music video for the last year at least and have never managed to find the opportunity or make it happen.
Recently a friend of mine, Tom Kellett, started up a band called The Moth Club - A collective of musicians and filmmakers based down in Cornwall who are focussed on creating music and art. You can find them on Facebook here.
So I dropped him a line about making a music video for a track of his that I really loved. It's only 1:51, but I really really dig it. Take a listen to it here.
This is a bit of a direction change for me, since before this summer I was dead set on just pursuing a career in purely narrative work without much of an interest in going into commercials. But after working up in London this summer as an intern for Caviar, Knucklehead and most recently on a long distance basis, Pulse, I've really gotten into them. The fast turn around of them as well as the creativity involved in them is incredibly appealing."
I think I just wanted to post about my excitement to be making something new. But I didn't feel it really had much of a place here on the blog since it was more of a "this is so exciting, look what I'm doing" post, than something more meaningful.
But now, after having spent the last 3 weeks prepping for the shoot, doing camera tests, rehearsals and hunting for props and costume I thought I had something more to say.
THIS STUFF IS STRESSFUL.
As I'm writing this we're the eve of the shoot. Cameras are prepped, food for cast and crew is bought, call times are locked down - everything is in place! And I'm feeling so excited but also so so nervous.
What if something goes wrong? All of this hard work and then when it comes to the crunch it all falls through. Or that painting in the back of the set that I've been planning on swapping out for something else ends up being worse and just ruining everything.
But all the nerves and excitement and even a sprinkling of self doubt are what make this so special. This time tomorrow something new that never existed before will be born and that's just a crazy exciting thought. No matter what, it'll all come together and magic will happen. How flipping cool is that? The notion of creation being so accessible.
And that's what this all boils down to I guess. As a creative, especially as a filmmaker, you get to create something which many would argue the notion of as the greatest thing in the Universe.
So as I sit here with nerves running wild and excitement going through the roof I just remember why I'm doing this and at the end of the day what it all means. And hell isn't that a magical comforting thing.